| So its been over a year since i have even looked at this. So i just got two part time jobs, one delivering flowers and one delivering newspapers. Its easy work. But the schedules suck the newspaper is 1am-5am. and the other 11am to 4 pm. Planning on going back to star this summer to do mainteance work and im just waiting to hear back for when im going to start. I applied to a paramedic school out in Pittsburgh next fall, im excited about doing that. Thats pretty much my life right now.
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| - Shine Your Light5 days short of 4 months, wow thats a long time. I cant believe
ive been living on an island for all that time. Yes its me Jeff
coming to you live (well not by the time you read this) from star
island in the middle of the ocean in not so sunny New Hampshire.
I have had and am still having a wonderful time working out here.
Its been a nice long break from what we have come to know as normal
life, in our fast paced technology driven world. And even though
i say that i do miss it and i am ready to go back home and continue my
life, atleast until next year when i will come back to work on this
wonderful island for probally one more year. What has gone on
this summer? Not too much and at the same time TONS!!!! 4
months seems like so long ago and i can barley remember the horrible
boat ride out in the choopy seas with 40 people i never met before to
go to an island ive know my whole life but now am seeing it from a
different light. The light of a pelican, a worker, someone that
they dont care if its not the easiest because were not paying to come
to this island were being paid to be here.
Now its down to the last 30 workers and after friday down to just 15 of
us for a last 2 weeks of work. Then on to home where i will see
all of my old friends, or atleast whos left after colleges have
started, then go on a road trip first to new egland the virgina and
part, and maybe finally out west to see if im intrested in moving out
there and finding a firefighting job after i leave star next
year. And either the end of my road trip or when im out of money
which ever comes first back home to live with my parents and find a job
till next april when i will come back to star for another summer of fun.
beauitful sunsets, wonderful friends, acceptance, loving, not woring
about what people think about you, being free to do pretty much
whatever you want, open mindedness, great memories..... the kind
when you think about them they just make you smile and wish you could
go back to when your feeling down and having a bad day. The kind
of memories i have from cons, the first cons atleast, and parts of the
last one. Wanting to live on this island forever but at the same
time me being out here made me realize i do have plently of people that
care about me and that i want to get to know better because i dont feel
i know them well enough. I want to have the kind of friendships
that you see in movies, where they know all about each other, then have
great times when they are around each other, there is always something
to talk about never a dull moment. I want it to be like that with
so many people that i vaguly know now. But i know its not going
to happen with everyone, a few maybe, the hardest part is starting
thoes kinds of friendships, and thats what i am the worst at.
Maybe thats why i dont have anyone that i would really call my best
friend, except for maybe my brother. I have some great friends,
but none i would call my best.
I want things to be easy, i know it wont be but still. I want the
times of me wishing i had someone to call just to say hi and not feel
werid or be like hey hows it going.... and yeah like that. I want
to be close to people but thats so hard for me and i dont know why it
is. I want the simplicity of being alittle kid and not
woring about other peoples thoughts and having any other kid your age
just accept you like that and not worry about proving yourself or
anything like that. ok different subject ive gone on too long on
that one.
I guess thats all i have. Im drained now. going to i dont
know go somewhere and proablly listen to music, what i do when i want
to think or just escape from life, dream about what it could be.
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| So i had a rough week last week, spent most of it in hospitals, not fun at all. Im sorry for all of you that i scared. I made a huge mistake and thought that no one cared about me and i realized when i was at CCH that there are tons of people that care about me. how could i ever think of doing that? But im home now and things are ok i guess. Fire in WC yesterday morning. sick today. not haveing the best day so far. hopefully it will be a better day tomorow. |
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| Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male |
| Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
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